Trying to find help making vacations happen this year to celebrate my 40th birthday that I never got to celebrate in June because of a stupid seziure

I hate being in my head and stressed out and upset because I'm not over being able to go on vacation in June and celebrate my 40th birthday (which is a huge deal to me) and now even though I'm putting in the work to get back on my feet to be able to go on vacation in November since the seizure in June took alot from me. It doesn't look like its working out for me to go and thats not an option for me. I've worked my butt off the last 7 months to afford celebrating my 40th birthday this year and go on two or three vacations to celebrate my 40th birthday this year and I can't even get one to happen no matter how much work and effort I put in since the stupid seziure happened?? How is that fair??? What's the point in continue to try when I'm constantly being told "there's next June" and "you had a great birthday last June"... those aren't the same when they aren't my 40th birthday and I've been putting the work into celebrate it but it constantly gets pooped on for me because of that stupid seziure. Do I have a few friends to help me me able to go two vacations to celebrate my 40th birthday this year??? I want to go to Atlantic City, NJ with my Richmond, VA family from November 23rd through the 26th of November. Then in December go out to Vegas and celebrate mine and my childhood friend Codi and I turning 40 this year. Both of those vacations happening would make up the stupid seziure taking away my 40th birthday celebration in June and my vacation as well in June. If you can help me make those vacations happen with the work and effort I'm still putting in as well then please let me know. Or send me something on cashapp at: $BreakMyDreams or on Chime at: $Christa-Sunderland-1 or sign-up to use Cashapp at: Get $5 when you send $5+ with Cash App. Create your account with my code: XDWLGWH.

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