To go or not to go on vacation in 12 days?? 👀🤔

*sighs* Still dealing off and on with not believing that ironbeardesigns has passed away 😞 I also dealt with the same thing after my mom passed away. I just want to finish dealing with Gareth's passing and move on and deal with it once or twice a year like I do with other's who have passed in my life. 

Also dealing with wanting so badly to go on vacation in 12 days, but not knowing if its the right thing to do because I could/should be using the money I have saved to move with at the end of July (still trying to find a place) and getting my moped up and running again even though I had two seziures at the beginning of the month and that means I shouldn't drive until the beginning of December 2026 now instead of the end of June 2026 😞 Not to mention where I move to might not be on the bus line or within easy walking distance to the bus 🚌 line. So, I have to keep that in mind. 

If I go on vacation there is a chance I could hit a nice jackpot when gambling 🎰 one of the days there. Which would be very helpful for moving expenses and getting my moped up and running again. 

But it would also mean that I need to bust my butt outside of working my two jobs to make the money 💰 to move back and get my moped 🛵 up and running again. 

Which I can do easily, but at the same time I would need to work harder on getting my room decluttered and packed up of things that are important to move and not just junk and trash (I'm holding onto things I shouldn't be holding on to). As well as busting my ass on my off work days when the weather is nice to make the money I need to move and fix my moped even when I'm only wanting to take the day off to rest and be lazy, which are the days I struggle the most. I wouldn't be able to rest those days, I'd have to go out and work on those days. 

*sighs* 

What is the right choice for me on vacation?? To go or not go?? 👀🤔