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You...I can't save you... I... I'm hurting 💔 because of your life choices taking you away from me all the time and putting you in a place where I can't easily reach you or see you or talk to you anytime I want to. Why do you have to keep making choices that put you away from me? It's not fair. You also know I worry about you more each day because of your age and health. Yes I know you are technically somewhere safe and have food and shelter and access to medical care if needed it still hurts that you are there once again 💔😭😡 If you are able to get out soon and don't lose your house because of this. Then please...please...please...don't do anything else stupid to put you back there ever again 😡😭💔 because I can't save you. I can't fix your choices that put you where you are. I can't save your stuff if you lose it because of your choices. I don't want you to lose everything that you've worked for. I don't want you to spend the rest of your life where you currently are 😡😭💔 You just turned 62 the other day. You shouldn't be there again. If your parents were still alive they'd be super disappointed in what's going on with you currently. How are you supposed to help me if I need it? How are you supposed to protect me if I need it? How are you supposed to be there for your other two kids? How are you supposed to be there for your grandkids? You can't if you are where you currently are right now 😡😭💔 I...I'm hurting once again because of you making stupid choices and it putting you where you are again 😡😭💔 I can't talk to family about it. I can't talk to friends about it. I can't talk to my sisters about it. I can't get on Facebook anymore since it happened without it being the first thing I see now. There are people commenting that they are happy you are there and that hurts, because I don't feel like you should be there. You did take a good picture 📸 and look like Santa 🎅 Claus, but you shouldn't be there. Something I love ❤️ to tell you that you look like at times (half smile), but I don't want to see others call you Santa on the posts even though those comments are better to see then the other ones. This hurts so much 💔 it adds to stuff that I already have going in my life that I'm trying to fix and work on for myself and its honestly breaking me down way more 💔😭 I don't need this on top of my own stuff. I really don't. I'm falling apart 💔 😭 I'm struggling to not think about you and what's going on with you and stay focused on myself and fixing myself and fixing my life so I don't lose myself and what I've worked for since moving here in 2019. I can't let you bring me down right now, but I don't know how to stop letting whats going on with you bring me down right now 😡😭💔 I love ❤️ you and am always going to try and be there for you, but this hurts 😡😭💔