My thoughts and questions on the Richmond, VA water 💧 situation right now...

So stuff doesn't add up for me with the Richmond, VA water 💧situation since it started Monday. 

Why not tell us earlier in the day Monday so we could better prepare for it to begin with? 

But also now that things are slowly 🐌 being fixed and supposedly up and running again. How is it that some people supposedly have water 💧 again and it is supposedly working great and like normal again, but some are having barely anything and very low pressure and it is 💩 colored and smelly like chlorine, but then some people have none at all still... how can Street A have great water 💧 and the Street B around the corner have no water???

Why is it they can't just shut off everyone's water until the reservoirs fill back up to the 10 to 18 feet again so that they can get to the 20 psi to push out to all 9 zones in need of water 💧 right now to go back to normal living after they test it twice 16 hours apart to make sure things are safe again and no one has to boil water before drinking and cooking with it?? Why can't they just give us a date that it will be fixed and normal again?? 

I'm overwhelmed, frustrated, and confused by all this and it all not adding up in my opinion.

Thoughts on my job situation

I want something better job wise. Housekeeping/laundry in a hotel isn't bad work. I love it, but at the same time I don't feel like I can ever move up in the company and work in another department, etc... I want a job that I can move up in and be more successful in one day soon. I just don't know where to look for that job or how to find it since I honestly don't have that much work experience and have messed up quite a few jobs the past two years. I know I will figure something out soon and positive things will happen for me soon with my job situation.

So many thoughts and things on my mind...

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Thoughts on self injury again *sighs* TW

Been having thoughts on self injuring lately, but I haven't acted on it, so that is good. However, I told my counselor last week and she asked if I was carrying around my razors or if I have acted on the thoughts and I told her the answer was no to both and she said that was a good thing.
Then at the end of the session she said we are going to start working on trauma issue again sighs Not looking forward to that, because last month when we started it, I began having nightmares and waking my boyfriend up with them in the middle of the night, so not looking forward to that happening again.

Not to mention it adding to the daily stress I am dealing with already and having to try and use my good coping skills and not my self injury coping skill sighs

Hoping I do well with this... will keep you all updated...
Just needed to vent and get this all out.
Don't want to write about it in my journal I take to my sessions though, because that would be weird, but I might.

Its so hard...

To have a Daddy that is about 4 hours from me :( I need him to be closer that way there's less chance of me messing up and breaking rules :( Should I move closer to him if I know that there's a chance of proving to him that I can behave and follow rules better??? *sighs* I'm so confused :( I get to meet him for the first time on May 30, 2009, though and I'm excited about that :) I'm hoping it goes good because he's good for me :) Well, I'm going to go back to my PTC sites since they are keeping me entertained while I can't sleep for being worried about things right now *sighs* :( I know I will be in trouble for being up right now if my Daddy finds out too :( I'm not going to tell him though, because he's REALLY mad at me for my behaviour this weekend :(