Reason I haven't been around lately... *sighs* ....Health Update July 2017

I have and still am not feeling well because of my chronic illnesses that I deal with daily. 

They have me feeling sick to my stomach daily and sleeping pretty much all day most days or not at all for a couple days and then crashing for a few days, but on top of it losing track of days. 

It sucks. 

I do go to my Primary Doctor at least once a month as wall as a Pain Clinic once a month to help with my pain, but it is still not managed well. However, I struggle with should I go to the ER since my stomach pain gets worse each day or should I just put up with it since I go see my Primary Doctor and the Pain Clinic every month and don't want them to think I'm getting seen just for the pain meds, because that isn't the case *sighs* I haven't been to a hospital ER since I moved a few years ago and I want to keep it that way, but with things getting worse, I want to get checked out at the same time as well *sighs* 

I don't know what to do :( 

Anyways, how are you all doing? 

I do know I want to be feeling well for my Hanson concert on October 25, 2017, in Las Vegas, NV since I haven't seen Hanson in FOREVER and they are my all time favorite band. 

I will figure something out soon. 

I will also keep you all updated. 

Frustrated Rant

I'm frustrated and in huge amounts of pain that my pain meds and the heating pad I'm using can't help. I've been in the ER twice this week for the pain and that didn't help figure anything out, just helped treat some of the pain I was in *sighs* :/

So, today, I called and made a follow up appointment with my GI doctor for March, and I'm hoping that when I go the stool sample that I have done will help to tell some of what is going on and also that we can do another colonoscopy and endoscopy, because I'm thinking since May of 2013 my body went from showing visible colitis to having microscopic colitis. So, I'm hoping my GI doctor can find out in March if that is what is what is what is going on and that is why I'm in huge amounts of pain *sighs* :/

Also something else that bugs me, is that the ER doctor prescribed me Bentyl and they know I have colitis and I take Apriso for it, so why would you prescribe me that? Then on top of that I tell you that I have taken it in the past before I was diagnosed with colitis and it didn't help me and made me worse when they that I had IBS *sighs* :/

Not to mention I looked up on my phone at the ER that Bentyl shouldn't be given to those that have colitis *sighs* :/

What is wrong with doctors?

Thoughts on self injury again *sighs* TW

Been having thoughts on self injuring lately, but I haven't acted on it, so that is good. However, I told my counselor last week and she asked if I was carrying around my razors or if I have acted on the thoughts and I told her the answer was no to both and she said that was a good thing.
Then at the end of the session she said we are going to start working on trauma issue again sighs Not looking forward to that, because last month when we started it, I began having nightmares and waking my boyfriend up with them in the middle of the night, so not looking forward to that happening again.

Not to mention it adding to the daily stress I am dealing with already and having to try and use my good coping skills and not my self injury coping skill sighs

Hoping I do well with this... will keep you all updated...
Just needed to vent and get this all out.
Don't want to write about it in my journal I take to my sessions though, because that would be weird, but I might.

New GI doctor visit today - Update

Had a visit with a new GI doctor today and it went good. Go back to see him on 12/8/15. Hoping we can figure out what to do about the colitis pain and how to calm it down, that way I can enjoy life a bit more then I am right now. Because right now being in severe pain, it is hard to enjoy daily life, because it is hard to get out of bed with the pain I'm in everyday. Will keep you all updated as I can.

But so, far I think I'm going to do well with this new GI doctor, so I'm hoping things continue to go well.

I also weighed in at 242 lbs. Which is surprising because I feel like I should weigh more then that, but then again, I am lucky to eat, because of my colitis :/ So, I guess I shouldn't be that surprised.

Yay I get to see a new GI doctor in November 2015 - Update

Well, after not having a GI doctor for about a year I finally have good news. I got a referral to one and get to have an office visit with them on November 9, 2015.

I'm hoping they will work with me and do a new colonoscopy and endoscopy and this time get biopsies because my last GI doctor didn't do that during the procedure and that is part of his job even if everything looks good *rolls eyes* knowing I'm in constant pain still on my lower left side and having new lower right sided pain as of October 2014, should mean even if things look good, you take biopsies, right? I'm also hoping that the new GI doctor will change my meds, because my current medicine Apriso doesn't seem to be controlling all my symptoms and making things worse lately *sighs*

I also don't know if it is a good or bad thing that my colon pain is up to the point that breathing is killing me, not to mention walking or bending over. So, I can just imagine that if I went to my new GI doctor today and they pressed on my colon to check things out, that I would most likely scream out loud in pain. Which is not like me when I get checked out, I normally am in just enough pain to where I just end up wincing in pain when they press on my colon to check things out.

As of September 17, 2015, when I got in a tiny fender bender and ended up dealing with a tiny bit extra lower right sided stomach pain then normal and not being able to lay on my right side, I'm still as of today unable to lay on my right side, because of the pain.

July 2015 Online Earnings

July 2015 online earnings for my boyfriend were: $3.21 and my July 2015 online earnings were: $18.43

How well did you do in your July 2015 earnings online?

I would have done better at earning if I wasn't sick for most of the month.

To prove that you will see that in my August online earnings when I show you what they are next month. 

I do want to point out that I post payment proofs whenever I get paid and most of the sites and apps I earn from are listed on this link here on my blog if you are wanting to earn along with me as well. 

Update on my next colonoscopy and endoscopy date

My arm is bruised in a few places, because of where they tried to get to a couple of my veins yesterday. 

I ended up calling my GI doctor's office this afternoon, since I hadn't heard about when my procedure was going to be rescheduled for yet. 

My new colonoscopy and endoscopy date is set up for February 27, 2015 and I have to arrive at the hospital at 8:30 am. 

I'm hoping since, it is going to be at the hospital this time that they can find a vein on me, since they can use the help of a machine, if they need the extra help. Because if they can't find one and I have to redo the preparations again, I'm going to be really pissed off more, then I was yesterday.

I will keep you all updated on how things go this time from preparing for my procedure, to having it done and the results of it.

Getting back on track using SparkPeople

I am now as of yesterday working on being active on SparkPeople to help get me back in track with getting back in shape and feeling better about myself again.

I have lost 5 lbs. since the beginning of the year, as of yesterday :) So, that makes me very happy, but I want to do better and actually see progress with my weight loss more in person then on the scale every few months when I go to the doctor.

I go back to the doctor in 6 months (so November 2014) and I want to have lost at least 10 lbs. by then because the doctor didn't seem impressed with my weigh loss of 5 lbs. :( Even though I was very happy to see that.

Starting Weight: 290
Current Weight: 271.2 (As of 5/15/14)
Lowest Weight: 130
Goal Weight: 170

Also, here is a starting photo, so that I can work on seeing progress again through photos, because it is motivation for me. Photo was taken on 5/11/14. So, I will update it again on 6/11/14 to see if I notice a difference in my looks. I will wear the same clothing that day as well.

I have simple exercise goals of starting with working out in the morning and working out for 10 minutes everyday, if not more. Also, I am working on kicking out soda from my diet again and adding more water with crystal light into my diet again.

Also, when I go to my GI doctor in June, I am going to try and find out if I have  a gluten intolerance and if I do, then I will be going gluten free as well, to see if that helps with my chronic stomach pain.

Craving Cash Payment Proof and some updates...

Here is my 2nd payment from Craving Cash :)

The color is B422 Argento Mist F :)

Well, my Las Vegas, NV trip with my sister Seana, Scott (her husband), and Hayden (my nephew) is going to work our after all *smiles* We leave for Las Vegas, NV on November 4, 2010 *smiles* So, that means I am going to go see Brian on November 2, 2010 and then come back home on November 3, 2010 *smiles* Just have to work out the money situation for my trip to see Brian a tiny bit more though... because I think it would be really good for me to go and see him again before I go to Las Vegas, NV...

Well, I had a bit of drama this past Sunday and it didn't help my dropping from my playing on Saturday night at LF *sighs* I'm still not sure why I dropped because I had aftercare after two of my scenes at LF on Saturday night *sighs* Anyways I was able to play with DaddyBlackHeart again and I loved it sooo much more then the first time *smiles* He is one of the bestest spankers and one of the bestest too cuddle with and talk to *smiles* Hoping I get to play with him again in November 2010 sometime!!!

Hmmm, I should be in bed right now since my Daddy gave me a bedtime of 11:30pm and it is 1:15am, but I really can't sleep right now, so I'm trying to keep myself occupied so that I don't get bored *sighs* But I guess I might head to bed after I finish this blog post because of the fact that I want to get up and watch my craft shows from 6:30am to 8:30am *smiles*

Ohhhh, FedEx came to bring me a package today from NCP... Its a scanner that I get to take with me on my shopping trips and then do surveys about my shopping trips... then I earn points and get to redeem them for lots of fun products in there magazine *smiles*

I started my period today...which is good news because that means I don't have to worry about it when I go visit Brian and when I go to Las Vegas, NV *giggles*

I am excited about going to Las Vegas, NV again, but I'm nervous too because I'm going to want to make sure I keep an eye on Seana and keep her out of trouble while she is out there, but at the same time I want to be able to have fun while I am out there because I don't get to have that much fun living here in Bassett, VA anymore *sighs*

Valerie says she might be able to buy me a camera phone while I'm out there *smiles* I really hope she can because I would LOVE to have a camera phone *smiles* I'll keep you updated on that though *smiles*

Sometime today I will be posting pictures of my crochet and knitting projects that I'm working on for Christmas gifts *smiles*

Well, I might head to bed now for a bit and see if I can get a few hours of sleep before my craft shows come on *giggles*

*waves* Talk to you all later *smiles*

Have a good night :D

Blog update and real life update...

Well, first off I UPDATED my blog by giving it a new background template and adding some new boxes on the right side of my blog posts to let you know what PTC site I own, what ones pay, what search and win sites I am on, and sites that I am testing out to see if they pay :)

Also, Pam (my step-mom's mom) came over to use my computer today because the libary was closed and she doesn't have internet at home right now... she had to talk to one of her "sugar daddy's" and he bought her a pizza, wings, and sandwich at Domino's so she asked if I wanted to go with her to get it and I said yes, that way I could get my Safelink minutes and just get out of the house for a little bit... It was NICE out today and still is considering it is 79*F outside right now at 5:54pm :)

Anyways, I got some dishes washed and threw away some stuff and organized some stuff in my bedroom and my computer room today too :) Going to work on it more later tonight and then tomorrow because its showed me how much I've missed it looking nice and organized *sighs*

Also, Valerie (my mom) got an e-mail saying the check she is waiting for to send me, my sister Seana, Scott (Seana's husband), and Hayden (Seana & Scott's son) out to Vegas will be sent to her soon, which means that she will be giving me dates for when I will be going out there for a week, but before I go out there I am going to be going to Richmond, VA to visit Brian (my BDSM Daddy) and then go agian to visit him and my friend Jen, who will be driving from NJ, to have some playtime & discipline & drinking for a night or two :D

Warm Fall/Autumn Day!!!

First I just want to start out by saying its such a nice and warm fall day today!!! Right now at 1:53 pm it is 75*F outside and I have my windows open :)

I love when the weather is nice like it is today!!!

Here is an updated picture of me...just taken today!!!

Let's see here...what else can I talk about now... *thinks* How about how I'm in trouble and going to be getting my ass blistered tonight from my Daddy for my behaviour lately :(

How about how I want to sign up to take the SAT ASAP so that I can try going to college next year, but I don't really have support from my family and friends :(

How about how I am jealous of my sisters for having normal lives...

How about how if I don't try taking the SAT and signing up from college next year I will ALWAYS be kicking myself in the ass wondering if I could have suceeded in college and got my dream job of becoming a teacher...

Anyways... those are just a few of the things that are on my mind right now *sighs*

*giggles* This is the little girl in me *smiles*

Happy 1st day of Summer!!!

Since today is the first day of Summer, I want to start off by wishing everyone a Happy 1st day of Summer!!!

These pictures are from my computer room window today!!! So, you can see what a very nice 1st day of Summer we are having here today :)

These are a new brand of chips that I am loving on snacking on sometimes :)

This is some mail I got for my upcoming birthday (June 24th)

These next two pictures are a few freebies that I got in the mail in May 2010 and never got around to posting about till today since I'm not that busy today :P

I spent most of Father's day (June 20, 2010) with my Dad and step-mom... because I wanted to be able to have some time with my Dad while I can since I live close by him right now... hoping to be able to move and have my own life with a guy around my age soon though *sighs*

Also, I'm working on crocheting a new purse!!! Should have that finished soon and then I can share pictures of it with you all soon :)

The other day I ordered my Greyhound bus tickets for my trip to Richmond, VA in  July to see Hanson and they cost me $68.00 for round trip... so not too bad in my opinion... I still have to buy my concert ticket and get a hotel room that night, plus make sure that I have some money for a taxi ride or two and some merchandise from the concert.

Also, Hanson's newest CD "Shout It Out" just came out on June 8, 2010, and my Mom (Valerie) hasn't been able to find it in any stores in Las Vegas, NV or in Henderson, NV :( So, I still don't have the newest Hanson CD yet :( But I know I should have it for sure before Christmas :P