Reason I haven't been around lately... *sighs* ....Health Update July 2017

I have and still am not feeling well because of my chronic illnesses that I deal with daily. 

They have me feeling sick to my stomach daily and sleeping pretty much all day most days or not at all for a couple days and then crashing for a few days, but on top of it losing track of days. 

It sucks. 

I do go to my Primary Doctor at least once a month as wall as a Pain Clinic once a month to help with my pain, but it is still not managed well. However, I struggle with should I go to the ER since my stomach pain gets worse each day or should I just put up with it since I go see my Primary Doctor and the Pain Clinic every month and don't want them to think I'm getting seen just for the pain meds, because that isn't the case *sighs* I haven't been to a hospital ER since I moved a few years ago and I want to keep it that way, but with things getting worse, I want to get checked out at the same time as well *sighs* 

I don't know what to do :( 

Anyways, how are you all doing? 

I do know I want to be feeling well for my Hanson concert on October 25, 2017, in Las Vegas, NV since I haven't seen Hanson in FOREVER and they are my all time favorite band. 

I will figure something out soon. 

I will also keep you all updated. 

Colonoscopy and endoscopy failure day today :(

Well, I started yesterday (February 11, 2015), by having a liquid only diet all day and then at 6:00 pm I had to begin this new prep to clean me out called Surprep Bowel Prep. It didn't start working on me till 8:00 pm, so that kind of sucked, but it was quick work after it. The taste was ok for the most part, however, it made me really nauseated and feeling like I was going to be sick at any given minute. Luckily I didn't get sick. I was up and down all night, then had to wake up and drink the second half of my Surprep Bowel Prep at 7:30 am, I had to have it down and the extra liquid to follow it by 9:00 am and I was almost able to do that. I drank about half of it before I had to stop because if I continued, then it would be coming out the wrong end.

I got to my appointment and signed in by 12:00 pm, like I was supposed to and I was supposed to have been back for my colonoscopy and endoscopy at 1:00 pm, but that didn't happen, because even after 7 times of being poked to find a vein, they couldn't get one. They tried 5 times in my left arm/hand/wrist and 1 time on my right arm, then 1 time on my left foot.

Since, they couldn't get a vein, and they felt bad poking me so many times, they asked if I wanted to do the procedures awake and I told them no, because it would most likely cause me to have my PTSD act up and freak me out and I didn't need that, not to mention I was already dealing with pain and feeling like I was going to be sick at any given moment.

They allowed me to leave just before 2:00 pm and told me that I would get a call later and let me know when they rescheduled me at the hospital for another one. The hospital has a few machines to help find veins that like to hide and are deep, etc. So, hopefully when I go for my next one it will actually happen and I won't get stuck 7 times again and then have to leave frustrated again like today.

I felt bad because I feel like I wasted my time preparing for the procedures and my boyfriends time, not to mention their time. I also feel like I wasted money because the procedure didn't work out today. I guess my first two worked out better for me because they were done in the hospital where they have ways of finding veins that like to hide and especially so when you are dehydrated.