Stressed out about when my lease ends at the end of June 2023

I really want my next place to be a long-term place I can call home and not have to worry about moving after a few months to a year. It isn't fun, it is stressful. My current lease ends at the end of June 2023 (my birthday 🎂 month) and I'm pretty sure I have to move when it ends, because the owners were talking about how they wanted to sell it before I moved in, but decided not to only because of the one roommate upstairs that wanted to stay here for her last year of college. I wish I had a friend (just one) that would be willing to get an apartment together for a couple years so I felt like I had a home again. I'm trying to figure out my realistic goals to work on the next few months (this year) that will get me ready for when my lease ends at the end of June. One of those has to be saving up the money to move, saving up the money for the next down payment on the next room (want something more then that though), and start looking for a new place/room now to see what's out there now. I need to try and avoid being close to my lease ending and not having a place till the last minute (like this last time) or not having a place at all (like in 2020). I don't want to be homeless or close to being homeless again. Its too stressful. Its times like this I wish I had a boyfriend to help with expenses and get a better living arrangement *sighs* but honestly not sure I want a boyfriend again yet...because I kinda like being single, but guys are kinda complicated as well *sighs*

Tallie eating a treat for the first time from my hand!!!

My lovely kitty Tallie got some new treats in the mail today, so I let her try them and she ate them from my boyfriend's hand, which is a first for her, so I wanted to see if she would eat a treat from my hand to and she did :)



I also realized that she is picky on the treats I buy her, so I now know what brand of treats to get her now for awhile, before she gets picky about this brand.



Thank you Mom, Tallie loves the treats you bought her!!!

My boyfriend's birthday 2015

This is the mini-bundt cupcakes that I made for my boyfriend's birthday on November 10, 2015, this year. 

I wasn't able to get him a gift for his birthday this year, because we are tight on money, but I knew I at least had to bake him some cupcakes to help celebrate his birthday. 

Besides he loves my baking and was hoping I would bake him something for his birthday, even though he didn't ask me out right to do so.

This year he had a chocolate cake with chocolate frosting, that came with sprinkles. He isn't a fan of sprinkles, but I got the frosting anyways and put it on the cupcakes, because in my mind it makes them look more like they are celebrating something special, and since they were for his birthday, they were celebrating something special!!!

*breathes a sighs of relief*

Been in a bad place this last month due to roommate stress, because he didn't pay his half of bills and now we are behind a month on some of our bills.
So, anyways, I did have a good birthday about a week ago, even though I didn't go or do or get anything and just spent time with my boyfriend.
The last few months I've been dealing with the stress of my boyfriend going downhill because he hasn't been on medicine that has been controlling his bipolar and now as of two days ago for the second time ever in his life, he ended up in behavioral health and is hopefully getting help again and will be out in about a week *sighs* But I've been dealing with seeing him self injure off and on and it triggers me a bit because I do my best to avoid it to make my boyfriend happy, so I haven't self injured since, November 27, 2010, but I just changed that a few minutes ago and I'm happy I did because I needed the relief and control and I missed it, if that makes since.

Distractions...

Have been spending time with my awesome boyfriend, watching TV, watching the livestreams that my favorite band has had on their website this week, cleaning the house, carrying around and looking at my razor blades, playing video games, earning money on my online earning sites, finding freebies and deals online, and going for a walk when I can outside, oh yeah, I also, texted my best friend and got a phone call from her and talked to her about things and that helped a TON!!!

I hate the fact that I have had the urge to self injure this week, since it has been my birthday week, but I am kinda used to it and I guess the good news is that I had managed to avoid self injuring thanks to all the distractions I wrote about.

I wanted to share what has worked for me this week and even though I'm still on the verge self injury because I have a TON on my mind, I am still working on my distractions that I posted about and doing my best to avoid self injury right now, but that is getting hard to do *sighs*

Anyways, hope you all have had a great week and weekend and talk to you all soon :)

My 2013 Online Earnings Total

Well, I have been earning money online since I was in high school and never kept track of it till January 1, 2013. So, I went an entire year and wrote down each of my payments I have earned online from the sites I use to earn on and my total came out to be $579.99.

I also have been keeping track of my boyfriend's online earnings since March 1, 2013 and his total came out to be $18.00. He doesn't use all the sites I do, so that is pretty good, for just a few sites and not doing it everyday.

I am looking forward to keeping track of my earnings again this year and seeing what I end up with at the end of 2014. I am going to aim for $600.00 or more for myself and just see what my boyfriend ends up with.

If you earn online and keep track of it, then feel free to share with me, how much you earned online in 2013, especially if you joined sites that I post about on my blog. I would love to see your earnings and celebrate with you.