Wishing I could talk to my G-ma Sally for advice

I wish my G-ma Sally was still around to talk to. I could use her advice for the situation I'm in currently. 

I know what the right thing to do is, but I'm not ready to do it yet. I'm scared of doing it and losing everything (my safety net) and then not having anything if things don't work out. 

I'm postponing doing what I need to do with this situation until I prove to myself I will be ok without losing everything (my safety net). 

Grandma Sally,!:)

 I love and miss you so very much G-ma Sally!!! Wish you were still here with us today!!! You mean so much to me and I hate that I can’t call and hear your voice on the phone as we talk about our day!!! I also hate that I can’t come visit you for holidays and surprise days during the year to give you hugs and kisses!!! Love you and miss you lots and can’t wait till I can see you again one day!!!

Happy birthday G-ma Sally - 4th birthday in Heaven

Today is my G-ma Sally Sunderland's 4th birthday in heaven and it doesn't get any easier. I know she is looking down watching over me and guiding me and listening to me when I talk to her, which is quite a lot, but I wish she was still here on earth with me where I can call her and go visit her in person *sighs*

I miss her so very much and love her so very much.

I tried to do her birthday balloon releasing today, but the wind wasn't right for it, so I'm going to do it tomorrow for her.

Here is a sneak peek of the birthday balloon she will be getting from me this year up in heaven for her birthday this year and I will have another video of it as well and share it with you all as well.

As you can see the wind wasn't right for the balloon releasing today for my G-ma Sally's birthday. She would be 84 today!!! 

Balloon Releasing for my Grandma Sally's Birthday

My Grandma Sally passed away on May 9, 2012 and her birthday was November 6th, and I still try and celebrate her birthday even though she passed away.

This year was her 3rd birthday in heaven and I wanted to try and cope with her passing and celebrating her birthday by releasing a balloon.

I plan on doing this every year now and she would be 83 this year.

I love you Grandma Sally. Hope to see you soon. Hope you had a great birthday in heaven.



It was hard for me to release the balloon for her, and I struggled with wanting to run after it and catch it as well as holding back crying while watching it float up to her to celebrate her 83rd birthday, but her 3rd birthday in heaven as well. 

Stomach pain 24/7 sucks :(

First off, I just want to say this is a post where I will be venting about my chronic stomach pain and also sharing info with clickable links for those that don't know about the conditions that I'm venting about.

I'll also, be giving some background to some of the pain I have dealt with the last few years.
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I have been dealing with chronic stomach pain since June 2010 and each day it seems to get worse :( I would love for it to go away and let me be pain free again, since I hardly have any good days even with the chronic pain at low levels, because it varies throughout the day. All of my major pain has been concentrated on my lower left stomach since June 2010.

Well, in August of 2011, I experienced my first ovarian cyst on my left ovary, however, I was still in extreme pain on the lower left of my stomach.

Then in May 2012, I lost my Grandma Sally Sunderland who I was extremely close to because she raised my sisters and I.I also ended up having surgery to get rid of my gallbladder because, during tests to see what was the cause of my lower left stomach pain, they found out in March of 2012 that my gallbladder was dead. Then during surgery they found out that it was sticking to other organs nearby as well. I also never had any pain from my gallbladder.

Then in May 2013, I found out after my second colonoscopy, first one was March 2012, that the cause of my lower left stomach pain was because I have colitis and gastritis. I also started dealing with bloating and gas 24/7 not long after this colonoscopy.

Then in June 2013, I got put on the med Apriso and still take it to this day.

However, at the beginning of 2014, I had started to have a pain under my left rib cage, that feels like it is constantly being pushed on from an organ under it and scrapping on it. Not to mention being bloated and tender 24/7 still

The pain under my left ribs and bloating is so bad now, that I am feeling nausea 27/7 from it and am extremely tender and can't stand to be touched on my upper stomach.

Now as of September 2014 off and on it started with random sharp pains around my belly button that come and go. As of October 2014, the belly button sharp pains are coming and going more and radiating over to my lower right stomach and making me even more nauseated.

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The pain under my left ribs, bloating, belly button pain, and lower right stomach pain. I have no idea what is causing it yet.

I have been brushed off about the pain under my left ribs and bloating by doctors every time I bring it up.

The belly button pain and lower right stomach pain, hasn't been brought up yet because I'm sure it is just due to my colitis, however if it gets worse between now and October 29, 2014, when I go to my first pain clinic appointment, then I will get it checked out. If not, then I will just bring it up to the doctors at the pain clinic appointment.

Happy 82nd Birthday Grandma Sally

 

I want to wish my Grandma Sally Sunderland seen below a Happy Birthday today in heaven. Today 11/6/13 you would have turned 82!!! This is your 2nd birthday in heaven and I hope that God is making you feel special and singing Happy Birthday to you on your special day :) I know you are on my mind and in my heart today. I love you Grandma and will see you one day soon again *HUGS, KISSES, and CUDDLES*

 

Review on my first ever tattoo that I got on 2/27/13 from Joe Davis at Immaculate Body Art, LLC in Martinsville, VA

Well, I got my first ever tattoo on February 27, 2013!!!

I didn't find it to be painful at all and actually slipped into tattoo space from it *smiles and giggles* I actually am going to be planning on getting the tattoo I have been planning out since I was 18 very soon :) I want to make sure this first one heals first before I go back for my next one, but that may change depending on my mood *giggles*

Here is my tattoo, just after it was finished:

I got it in memory of my Grandma Sally who passed away last May 9, 2012!!!

I found the tattoo shop Immaculate Body Art, LLC through my middle sister Seana who got a tattoo from them about 2 years ago!!! Since her's still looks awesome and the price was reasonable for mine at $60 I knew I wanted to jump on it and get it ASAP!!! 

I had gone in on Monday, February 25, 2013 and told them my design and gave them a copy of the sketch that my boyfriend drew up for me at dinner one night and then went back on Wednesday, February 27, 2013 and got it done between 5:30pm and 6:30pm :) 

Here are the tattoo care instructions that I got:

Here is their business card: 

You can find more of Joe Davis's work on his facebook group page Immaculate Body Art!!!

But he is an AWESOME tattoo artist!!!

I know I will be visiting him for another tattoo very, very, very soon!!! 

I'm an Aunt again and he showed up on the first day of Fall 9/22/12

 

First off yesterday was the first day of Fall, but I didn't let you all know, because I was more excited about my middle sister Seana giving me another nephew and making me an Aunt again to Westen :)

I just want to add that I guessed he was going to be weighing in at 7lbs. and 11oz. :) Those must be my lucky numbers, but that comes in a later post *giggles*

 

I just wished that my lovely Grandma Sally could have been here to see her next Great Grandkid :( But I know she is watching over us up in heaven and even will visit us (she visited me once two days before my birthday in June)

 

Rest in peace: Sally Sunderland, 11/6/31 to 5/9/12

 

 

Rest In Peace - Grandma Sally - 11-6-31 to 5-9-12

Rest In Peace Grandma :( I can't believe this day has come :( I am just dreaming right??? :( She is really still here right??? :( *cries and looks around for HER Grandma Sally*

I just don't know how to feel...I can't believe she isn't around anymore....It's a lie right??? Why can't I wake up from this nightmare???

She raised me and is more like a Mom to me then a Grandma, but she is also MY best friend!!!

If it wasn't for my Grandma I wouldn't be here today!!!

*cries*

Bring her back to me!!!

I NEED her still!!!

*cries*